in this new year, we will live one day at a time. we will make each day one of preparation for better things ahead. we will not dwell on the past or the future, only on the present. we will bury fear of the future, all thoughts of unkindness and bitterness, all our dislikes, our resentments, our sense of failure, our disappointments in others and in ourselves, our gloom and our despondency. we will leave all these things buried and go forward, in this new year, into a new life.
when you are sad or worked up...look to the sky. see the clouds still drifting and the birds flying. trust that the goodness of life would go on despite the atrocities that you may be dealing with. look to the sky. we can be free. happy new year!
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i began the new year sober. yippee for me and all the others who struggled through their first holidays with clarity. i thought a lot about you all last night. i also didn't hear many sirens. that was good!!! however, my alcoholic mind did think of all the people that were at dinners, parties and other new years festivities and wondered how they were feeling today. what did i miss out on? no doubt...i was missing 'my wine' all day yesterday. by eight or so...i began to feel a little bit better. this too shall pass and so it did. can't wait to hear your stories.
ReplyDeleteFirst night down of no vodka. The Absolut stock is about to plummet now that I'm done drinking it I'm sure. I had lots of distractions at the house last night so it went smoother than I expected. Slept like crap though - maybe a cumulative 1.5 hours with hot flashes and restlessness. Praying that this gets better. I am enjoying a non foggy brain today - I sent 2009 out with a bang so yesterday was a great day to quit for me!! Reading lots of passages in my Bible (I'm not particularly religious), but found one today that (paraphrased) - the night is nearly over and the day is near. This one resonated with me particularly well.
ReplyDeleteTake care everyone - this is a battle, but we are all strong women and will be able to win this war.
ETO
wow...congrats anon 9:23. hot flashes and restlessness are normal. it will get better. for me, i go to bed early just to get through the night. one day at a time.
ReplyDeletejust got back from a meeting. we talked about surrender. i still don't know how to do that. got any ideas? one guy said...put your expectations in your Higher Power's hands. let Him do the work and it will all work out. this was interesting to me. expectations lead to resentments and most times resentments lead us to pick up. i know i need to stop controlling thing and let go. i struggle with how to do that. another guy said just keep coming back and i will find the answers. maybe just not today. so...
today i will try to find a bit of excitement/joy in the small things. when we get sober, we get a chance to find out the person we are meant to be. i depended on the wine for so long. it may take a while to sort it out. hope to hear from you all soon.
Thank you Anon 11:37: I have had teenagers around me this weekend that know what I am doing so they have been distracting me.
ReplyDeleteLast night I went to bed at 10 and slept a fair amount, but still had the hot flashes and such. I'm still regulating the heat on the second floor of the house so I will blame it on that.
I too and challenged with the Higher Power concept. I have a Bible that I read passages from that I Googled regarding recovery. They mostly cover the topics of "the night is almost over and the day is very near" which I am more comfortable with right now instead of turning my entire life over to Him. I am not religious (Posters: please don't bust my chops about it). Some people in my life are and I am in awe of them, but after 41 years on this planet it is something that has not been sewn in to the fabric of my being.
I am doing this for me and that has been the biggest difference. I made this decision and surprised those around me when I told them it was as bad as it was. Since this was MY decision I feel as though this road has been a little easier than it has been for others that I read about or watch around me.
My drinking league with a bowling problem starts Sunday. I will be very happy to have more than a week under my belt before getting back in to the groove there.
ETO
So - I wonder if everyone is over at the yahoo site? I'm too chicken to sign in but basically the long and short of it is over the past two weeks (and after reading all of your beautiful and courageous posts), I have cut down from 2-3 drinks a day to one now. A small one at that.
ReplyDeleteAnd basically it's been great. I feel better and have more energy and sailed through the holidays without a single hangover or regret. I have still enjoyed the wine, as I said, but not to the point of feeling altered, and I like it better this way.
I know this won't work for everyone - I totally get that - but I wanted to say thank you to everyone for opening up your stories and hearts to each other. It has inspired me to make some needed changes for the better, and for that, I am truly grateful.
we are still here. our site will continue. we will get the word out somehow. we are proud of you anon 9:04. and thank you for sharing.
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